Diary of a Toxic Affliction [Ceri W.]

[C.e.r.i.s.e [WHITLEY]♥]

[[4-13-07]]

Today begins the twelfth day that I have had no contact with my dad. Slowly my heart descends into the pit of my stomach from missing him so much. Why do things have to be this way? How did they end up this way? Sure, I don't blame my dad for having the feelings he does towards Greg, and I am happy for him for falling in love with the man. He is quite nice and a good person. I just wish I had ended up on the other end of the country sometimes though. I'm torn between my best friends in the world Kota and Killia, and my dad who will always hold in my heart. I know that I could never live without my friends. They are my oxygen. If that is so though, my dad has to be something greater. All I know is I couldn't live without either, and that I am sick of being mental abused and physically abused by my step dad. Even if it isn't as bad as it could possibly be. Who wants to live with the worst and most conceited people in the world though. When the distance between my dad and I, I feel like I have no one person that truely can love and take care of me. I will always have my friends that is true, but I still feel lonely. I need some guidance. I want to see my dad again. I want him to hug me, pick me up off the ground, and spin me around in the air until we are both dizzy. I just want a family memeber near me that cares. I haven't had that for a long while now. My friends have saved me, even if they don't know that. I love all my friends dearly.

Other then that though, everything is going good nohing big to report. I am going to go check my text messages now to see if my dad has found the time to send me something.

Forever,
Ceri

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